I Never Told You

by Galal Saeed

You are fake and knowing you was a big mistake

Go away for God’s sake, you are a liar you are a snake

I hate you truly, I truly do

Every cell in me hates every cell in you

That’s what I told you..

That’s what I sent you..

But forget the messages I left after the tone

Forget every message in your phone

You were a glass and I’m a stone

You were my Gwen Stacy, the original one, not the clones

The one who always came back to me no matter how many times I disappeared or even forgot your existence

But I never told you..

You were the one that licked my wounds after fighting the goblins, demons and vultures in my mind

The one that stood by me when the world used to kick sand in my eyes, never knowing that you could bend the world like a pretzel

But I never told you..

You were the one that saw me without a mask and loved my wickedness and chaos,

My black lies and my ugly truths

My angry eyes and my ugly bruises

But I never told you..

I yell at you, you smile at me

You send me things that I won’t see

Your world is locked and I’m the key

But when you come to me I slay you like a flee

Your heart is beating fast, but mine is faster

I knew that love is what you’re after

But I would rather avert the disaster

You always ask me but I never answer

..

I never knew about your cancer

So I never told you..

..

I never knew that death was at your doorstep

Your soul was hanging by a thread

And when it fell I couldn’t catch it with my web

You left in the blink of my eye without good-bye

The sky was dark and the Nile was dry

The first night of July was the night I saw my innocence die

The night my soul was Lost inside a crash

The night my life turned into ash

It was a sudden stop, a terminal velocity and a whiplash

And now your smile is haunting me every day

It reminds me of my silence and I can’t get away

I know that human love decays

But Your laugh never fade with the days

Remember when I yelled at you?

That’s because I cared for you

I just hope you smiled because you knew

I just hope you smiled because you knew

That you were my Gwen Stacy

And I was your Silent-Man