by Enas Suleiman
Eid was always your favourite holiday –
colourful teyab, extravagant jewelry, fancy shoes
It was also your worst –
screaming children, ka’ak fingers, stained sheets
And when family rounds came
you claimed the evil eye would haunt us
for too much beauty shouldn’t ride in one car
Eyes rolled, mouths laughed, but car doors always opened
I picture chandeliers on the ceiling
of your newly acquired home
Beams bringing in angels
to cradle you out of solitude
I see you –
kohl eyes, white scarf, pink toub
I feel you –
warm embrace, life-sized heart, motherly worry
I miss you –
kind soul, thundering laughs, gossip queen
Your voice resonates in grandma’s living room
Bouncing off the walls you built
Your face I see as I dream
Imploring us to keep praying and shed no tears
Hallucination conquers my hearing and vision
My eyes sting
My lips quiver
I am still mourning you Auntie Eslah.
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